how can you bother?

i dont know how i have the energy.

i simply dont know where i get it from.

the speed i use is maid of good newse,

good news,

happy feelings,

reasons to persist are what keep me going,

keep me hyper,

keep my smiling.

no amount of negertive energy can burst my bubble,

if i have a good enough reason to keep it alive and floating.

but then like all drugs,

the speed im on tends to wear out after ower using it.

this is why im still wondering,

how on earth do i manage to find more and more small things,

tiny things that keep me going.

i really dont know how i have the energy,

the energy to bother.