you.

i crave your touch,
your taste,
your presence
and your sanity.

all i want,
all i need,
all i dream is you.

just one look,
one touch,
one word,
can drive me insane.

you are my insanity,
my obsession,
my one weakness.

insensitive animal-f*ckers

we have human rights, freedome to do basically anything appart from what will hurt another human or aything that the law finds bad. we aren't allowed to murder, rape or just in general harm and treaten a human. for doing this you can get put away in prison for some time, depending how bad your assult was it could be years, decades or even for life. but what about animals, don'e they have rights as well?

well apparently not. the way people treat animals these days sickens me to the point of no return. us humans beat, assult, abuse, harm, and rape animals, we even use them to test products on which are for human use! certain kinds of animal abuse, such as sela clubbing, bear fighting and whale fishing are actually sports. it is disgusting, not only can the animal not defend itself well, it doesnt even have any law protecting it.so this tells us that animals have no rights to humans, this means that if a human was murdered the person who murdered the human would be locked up for a bit, wheres if this was an animal who did it they would get put down. also if a human were to kill and animal not may people would care.

before i mentioned that human rape animals. this is ture, did you know that 20% of children who have abused other children have also sexually abused animals. also what is this i hear, animals being interpreted in to porn! what in the name of... what the hech sick person would harm and animals or involv it in this activity and the most discusting thig is that people actually watch this stuff. how the heck does this turn you on!?

my next point, animal testing, we need to test things on animals to see if we can handel it even though we arent 100% alike!? HELLOOO, there are actually volenears who let themselvs get tested on, yes it cost money but atleast they know what they are getting themselfs in to unlike a harmless animals such as a mous, frog, chicken, dog, monkey and any other animals used to test on, that has no clue whats going on appart from that is scared shitless and is about to go through some serious pain just so that us humans can continue to be at the top. yep i know its for reasurch but come one! at least give them nicer "cages" and more of a sanctuary feel to their environment they will live in.
there are way to may subjects within animal cruelty, neglegants, harming the list is actually rather endless and why is this, because the little things that are done to help, well they dont get that far.

then there are thos kids who have no life and get a kick out of harming animals, may it be from bouling a live duck, kicking a cat to death or even throwing a dog of a bridge! the sick things humans do, film and then send to every one on their contact list on their phones which then gest placed on the internet and they are proud of it. the worst it seems that can happen to such an offender is getting put in jail for a while, not such a long time but then again it depends of tallented you are at killing defensless creatures, otherwise you might just have to pay a fine. or if you unluky enought and you have been treating you pet badly it might get taken away from you, oh no, what will you horass now you sick sick son of a -!

now ever wondered how your meat is made? well i dont want to put you off eating meat but this is one out of many reasons i because a vegetarian. (3years soon :D)

now think about it, you might think throwing a dog of a bridge is sick but if you knew how places like KFC, McDonalds and all the other fast food places make, breed and get their meet, well then you have reached a level of hipocrasy you'd never expected to reach. whilst your eating that "food" maybe you should just consider how this animal was killed or what sort of life it had before death, if your having KFC chicken and you knew about that chickens death depending on if you care at all about any livng creature you might be repulsed.

so bsically the poin i am trying to bring across is that animal are treated badly, we dont do much about it and the people who care are expected to live with it.

human say they are more evolved than animals but then maybe we should take a step back from the smoke and mirrors to notice that we are the real beasts and animals in the world, we are the cause for corruption, we are the cause for destruction and we are the cause for pain and suffer.

so if us humans were to treat animals with a bit more respect then the world might really become a better place.

truths and untruths

you lied to me,

and i was dumb enough to believe your every word, your every movement and you.

sleepless nights

once more i am kept up due to the insanity of worries, insecurities, thoughts and problesm bouncing around in my head. provoking me, preventing me from the unconsiousness of sleep im longing for. the one time i get to give my mind a rest and a break form the lonaticity of the world around me. why do i always end up having so many thoughts rushing through my head during the night? it drives me to the brinks of madness and beyond.
as if tossing and turning to make a feeble atempt at sleep isnt enough, i then get restless beyond belief. i cant not, not do something. sitting, lying still is not something i can do. its insane.

but with bad things some times the good follow and in this case staying up late gives me the ability to comunicate with australia. (the 9hour time difference is a serious problem that must get fixed) the aussies are on holiday, 7months! i could really do with that right now, just relaxastion and less drama. Erik sais hi and sais he misses us ish people :) (im on about Erik from aussieland) we had a long chat, several hours covering many topics. he helped me solv some of my problems and helped me get some things of my mind without even notising it.
either way, i must stop with the staying up at ludicris hours thing. it makes me look like a zombie the next day..

Project- Fake Can of Snow- Sweden

It's nearly the start of December and there is no snow in Sweden..
WHAT IS THIS!?


We need snow, we crave it!! How can you feel all Christmasy without it!?
Louise and i have been descussing how there is no snow and we really wish there was some, so now we have come to a conclusion. Use those "Fake Snow in a Can" things and paint sweden white with them. :)
Yes, completely unenvironmentally friendly, but Hey, its soon Christmas and i see NO snow!
2days left untill december and there is no snow.
This is Sweden! there should ALWAYS be snow. Also whats the point in freezing to death in the cooold ass weather when there is no snow. Its depressing. Ah well, still 2days untill the snow is late..either way i'm still feeling rather Christmassy :)

chase that feeling..no, forget it?

They are all the same, well, at least it seems it. All the ones iv had in my life are and have been the same. Cheat, use, play. It seems like one big game to them all.

"I Love You"

3words that have been a load of bullshit and lies when said to me.

Howcome when a guy has hurt me in the past he doesnt get shit for it but when i hurt one guy without meaning to, completely unintentionally i quite litually get hung, drawn and quatered!?

I officially have no self respect for myself anymore. I barely did at the start but really is it necessary to do that? Why did you even bother with me if it was all just one big lie, a lie to try make yourself feel better, a lie maybe to get her to noice you more?

I know im not perfect, but what i also know is that i deserve better than this and i have had it with the way iv been treated by guys like you.

I'm a chase that feeling

take that pain and replace that feeling..

Obsessions..

Obessions..
I have way to many, but my newst obessions are:
Backs..
nice, toned backs..

Louise has officially made my new obsession clear.
We both have a huuuge thing for nice, toned backs.
As of yesterday we saw proabably what mometarily seems like the perfect back.. aaah sigh.
Like I said, I have many obsessions, but they tend to come and go.. but this one is probably going to stay for quite a bit.



Look up "back fetish" on Urban dictionary ;)
Louise and yours truly are part of it..
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Back%20Fetish&defid=4384667

Procrastination.

I have been procrastinating waaay to much recently.

Its really not good, i keep saying that im gonna focus on my work and then i get destracted within seconds. Its horrid!

Iv also been constantly saying that i will do xyz later, but i fail. Sometimes its really not healthy to be so easily side tracked.

Darn my simple mindedness!

Yesterday I got some help from Rrezarta with some pictures for my Personal Project... Thank you :D

The pictures for my Peronla Project are actually also something iv been procrastinating. Rreze and i were supposed to do them last saturday...but yes, we fell alone.

the Beginning of the End

Its the next chapter,

the beginning of the end or the end of the beginning. Is there a difference? Either way, I'm starting again, moving on, living again, no matter what will go wrong.

Some things just aren't meant to be and then all you can do is step back, look at what was and continue.

Some things change, others stay the same.

So ill just keep moving until i reach a dead end..

//To write back what is wrong

We move a long.

Down...

If you can't trust the wind, who can you trust?

If you can't love sin, who can you love?

If I begin will you let me finish up?

If I fell down would you pick me up?

When I was 5years old, my mum always

told me happyness was the key to life.

When I went to school, they asked me

what i wanted to be when i grew up.

I wrote down "happy".

They told me I didn't understand the assignment,

and I told them they didn't undersand life.

Why can't You Hear Me!?

I know you listen to me when I speak,

You listen to me, there is no doubt about that.

You try to understan,
Well, at least I think you do.

You listen to me but you dont seem to hear me,

Hear me when i try to explain,

Hear me when im going insane.

You listen, you don't hear,

You think you can relate, but you have no clue.

I tell you how I feel and you dont hear me,

You dont seem to understand.

So hear me just for one second, one second, thats all im asking for...

Is there Anything that We Said Today that was Funny and Stuck to Us

I'm kinda new to the whole blogging thing. I'm still not really sure how to work it all, but I have had a bit of helf from Natalya to get it starting. I started it as a form of boredome killer so I'm probably not going to write in it that often, but I will try my best. :)

I have now waited about 2 days to write something here as I had no clue whet my first post would be, so i guess this is it... Yesterday (28/10/09) Rrezarta and Louise came round to mine and we gathered a load of clothes, went out in to the rain and took pictures. It was quite a lot of fun actually. :) We had three main themes, 1) fancy clothing, we werent sure what the story behind it was but we just felt like we were a bit of a contrast to the weather. 2) "scary" as it is soon Halloween we thought it would be fun to do some where we look "evil" and as we were in the woods and it was raining it was the perfect setting. Finally number 3) we were Hippys which was a load of fun and i think this was the one we enjoyed the most, although it was raining a lot and we were outside in the dark falling over wilst we got changed in to the other outfits it seemed like the most enjoyable and rewarding theme. :)

Once we got back to mine all frost bitten, cold and wet, Louise took off home and Rrezarta and I watched Transformers. (all I can say is, Mergan Fox...Damn!!)

Thank you two for an awesome day, I had a lot of fun. :)

We Sing... We Dance...

We Love... We Live. :) <3