sleepless nights

once more i am kept up due to the insanity of worries, insecurities, thoughts and problesm bouncing around in my head. provoking me, preventing me from the unconsiousness of sleep im longing for. the one time i get to give my mind a rest and a break form the lonaticity of the world around me. why do i always end up having so many thoughts rushing through my head during the night? it drives me to the brinks of madness and beyond.
as if tossing and turning to make a feeble atempt at sleep isnt enough, i then get restless beyond belief. i cant not, not do something. sitting, lying still is not something i can do. its insane.

but with bad things some times the good follow and in this case staying up late gives me the ability to comunicate with australia. (the 9hour time difference is a serious problem that must get fixed) the aussies are on holiday, 7months! i could really do with that right now, just relaxastion and less drama. Erik sais hi and sais he misses us ish people :) (im on about Erik from aussieland) we had a long chat, several hours covering many topics. he helped me solv some of my problems and helped me get some things of my mind without even notising it.
either way, i must stop with the staying up at ludicris hours thing. it makes me look like a zombie the next day..